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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Because she thinks we're dating
From D: Tell your mom I'm too much of an asshole for you lol. At least I admit it :). I'm a dominating asshole in relationships.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Do you pay attention as well?
Thursday, I'm sitting in a meeting, and we're all listening to the conference call. The people on the other end go off on a random tangent, so we stop listening. Somehow, the conversation in the room turns to personal grooming for men, and all of the guys are chiming in with their two cents: how best to preserve the razor, what type to use, how it's a hassle, etc.
The girls are basically silent through this exchange, but when one guy mentioned he heard olive oil was the best at keeping the razor lubricated, I'd had enough. I waited for a pause in the conversation, then said, "I don't know what the problem is, I just wear pants." Dead silence for at least a minute. All of the girls start laughing, and finally, the guys do too.
I'd consider this instance of getting past the filter, a big fat WIN.
The girls are basically silent through this exchange, but when one guy mentioned he heard olive oil was the best at keeping the razor lubricated, I'd had enough. I waited for a pause in the conversation, then said, "I don't know what the problem is, I just wear pants." Dead silence for at least a minute. All of the girls start laughing, and finally, the guys do too.
I'd consider this instance of getting past the filter, a big fat WIN.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Part III: The Hockey Game
A little time, distance, and resolve have made this entry bearable to write. And cathartic in the end.
As you can see from the pictures I posted on Facebook, the people that went to the Cyclones hockey game are AJ, Jess, Stan, J, D, Misty, and I. I should have known better with those two guys and dollar beer night, but apparently I have a broad learning curve. I didn’t watch much of the game, but I do remember having a good time during. D, J, and I were very drunk. D was trying to get me to put the moves on J (sample: “he’s drunk, try to fuck him”), and Misty was trying to stop me (sample: “don’t pay any attention to him tonight. Act like you’re not interested!!! And I mean it!!!!!”). Mind you, most of this was taking place via text, so the rest of the group was basically unawares. J had some inkling because every chance I got, I was in his space: I drank out of his beer, I was touching his arm (or smacking it, as needed), I fell asleep on his shoulder, etc. I know he didn’t mind.
So the game is over, and we decide to head to Haufbrau Haus across the river. Stan took the five of us in the car, and J and D walked across the bridge to Newport, which was probably a bad idea as drunk as they were. They beat us there, and Misty grabs me and doesn’t allow me to stand with them because she was cutting off all of my contact with them. She buys me a mega beer (like 64 oz!), and we head to the table where everyone else is sitting. Both guys start texting me to ask what is going on, and if Misty is mad at them. I told J that she was mad at him for the way he treats me, and I told D she was mad at him for getting in the middle and being an instigator. He does enjoy starting shit, then sitting back and watching it hit the fan.
They ended up leaving because she made them feel unwelcome, but continued to text me. Both of them went to J’s place and were having conversations with me via text. J wanted to know how he had treated me and I told him that he was afraid to man up and actually try a relationship with me. He told me that he wasn’t afraid, just that he didn’t want a relationship with me. He said he wasn’t interested in me that way, but it’s apparently okay every time he gets drunk to call or text me to try and get me to come over. I told him at this point, we either needed to go out, or cut off all contact.
D kept telling me to try something with J, and then he asked if he had a chance with Misty and asked me to give him her number. I didn’t and told him he didn’t have a chance in hell with her. He texted back, “Good I don’t like loose whores anyways.” At this point, Misty took my phone away and started texting with D. They both were writing really mean things to each other and both got really pissed off. At the same time, Misty and I are up on the table dancing with a couple of older guys that were sitting next to us (this is allowed there). If you can imagine the picture: a bunch of people up on the table dancing and my purple phone getting passed back and forth between us, then a lot of hollering and exclaiming over what was said.
About this point, our beers were gone, and before we could order more, Stan said we had to go (he was DD) because he had to work in the morning. Misty was ok to drive, so we dropped her off at her car, and then headed home. I passed out on the floor of the bathroom because the tiles were cold and felt good on my face. My phone ended up in the kitchen somehow, which is probably a good thing since the guys started texting again. D asked me if I wanted to fuck (seriously, dude?), and J started a text with, “Did I mention at all . . .” Who knows what I would have done if I could have heard my phone. After about 2 hours, I woke up and got ready for bed.
Misty called me the next morning to make sure I was okay, and to reiterate I needed to cut off all contact with both of the guys. I lasted until Tuesday. J sent me an IM at work that said, “I know you’re pissed off at me, but I got taken off the Fry’s list.” Referring to the contract I’m working on and the strike duty he was going to be sent to Arizona for- which he got removed from. Of course I responded, and basically we’ve been chatting every day since, just like before.
I began talking again to D about the same time. I know he likes to cause trouble, but he means well, and I can’t stay mad at my best friend in Cincinnati. He’s aware of the entire situation with J and me, and is friends with both of us, so he’s trying everything he knows to do to try to get us together. Mostly because it amuses him, but a little part because he does means well.
As far as the future, I’m realistic. Right now, I’m a little heartbroken, but it hurts more to cut them out of my life. I’m not going to wait around for J to grow up, but I’ll probably never completely discount him. I do have oodles more of confidence now, and I’m taking every opportunity to get out there, so I feel like I’m on the cusp of something great in my life. Plus, my Christmas present to myself (and partially because I got a raise) is a paid month on chemistry.com. I feel like if I remove all of the bullshit barriers, and both parties are at the same point in their life, I could have some real luck. Besides, there’s a lot of single men in Cincinnati, and I can’t wait to dive in!!
As you can see from the pictures I posted on Facebook, the people that went to the Cyclones hockey game are AJ, Jess, Stan, J, D, Misty, and I. I should have known better with those two guys and dollar beer night, but apparently I have a broad learning curve. I didn’t watch much of the game, but I do remember having a good time during. D, J, and I were very drunk. D was trying to get me to put the moves on J (sample: “he’s drunk, try to fuck him”), and Misty was trying to stop me (sample: “don’t pay any attention to him tonight. Act like you’re not interested!!! And I mean it!!!!!”). Mind you, most of this was taking place via text, so the rest of the group was basically unawares. J had some inkling because every chance I got, I was in his space: I drank out of his beer, I was touching his arm (or smacking it, as needed), I fell asleep on his shoulder, etc. I know he didn’t mind.
So the game is over, and we decide to head to Haufbrau Haus across the river. Stan took the five of us in the car, and J and D walked across the bridge to Newport, which was probably a bad idea as drunk as they were. They beat us there, and Misty grabs me and doesn’t allow me to stand with them because she was cutting off all of my contact with them. She buys me a mega beer (like 64 oz!), and we head to the table where everyone else is sitting. Both guys start texting me to ask what is going on, and if Misty is mad at them. I told J that she was mad at him for the way he treats me, and I told D she was mad at him for getting in the middle and being an instigator. He does enjoy starting shit, then sitting back and watching it hit the fan.
They ended up leaving because she made them feel unwelcome, but continued to text me. Both of them went to J’s place and were having conversations with me via text. J wanted to know how he had treated me and I told him that he was afraid to man up and actually try a relationship with me. He told me that he wasn’t afraid, just that he didn’t want a relationship with me. He said he wasn’t interested in me that way, but it’s apparently okay every time he gets drunk to call or text me to try and get me to come over. I told him at this point, we either needed to go out, or cut off all contact.
D kept telling me to try something with J, and then he asked if he had a chance with Misty and asked me to give him her number. I didn’t and told him he didn’t have a chance in hell with her. He texted back, “Good I don’t like loose whores anyways.” At this point, Misty took my phone away and started texting with D. They both were writing really mean things to each other and both got really pissed off. At the same time, Misty and I are up on the table dancing with a couple of older guys that were sitting next to us (this is allowed there). If you can imagine the picture: a bunch of people up on the table dancing and my purple phone getting passed back and forth between us, then a lot of hollering and exclaiming over what was said.
About this point, our beers were gone, and before we could order more, Stan said we had to go (he was DD) because he had to work in the morning. Misty was ok to drive, so we dropped her off at her car, and then headed home. I passed out on the floor of the bathroom because the tiles were cold and felt good on my face. My phone ended up in the kitchen somehow, which is probably a good thing since the guys started texting again. D asked me if I wanted to fuck (seriously, dude?), and J started a text with, “Did I mention at all . . .” Who knows what I would have done if I could have heard my phone. After about 2 hours, I woke up and got ready for bed.
Misty called me the next morning to make sure I was okay, and to reiterate I needed to cut off all contact with both of the guys. I lasted until Tuesday. J sent me an IM at work that said, “I know you’re pissed off at me, but I got taken off the Fry’s list.” Referring to the contract I’m working on and the strike duty he was going to be sent to Arizona for- which he got removed from. Of course I responded, and basically we’ve been chatting every day since, just like before.
I began talking again to D about the same time. I know he likes to cause trouble, but he means well, and I can’t stay mad at my best friend in Cincinnati. He’s aware of the entire situation with J and me, and is friends with both of us, so he’s trying everything he knows to do to try to get us together. Mostly because it amuses him, but a little part because he does means well.
As far as the future, I’m realistic. Right now, I’m a little heartbroken, but it hurts more to cut them out of my life. I’m not going to wait around for J to grow up, but I’ll probably never completely discount him. I do have oodles more of confidence now, and I’m taking every opportunity to get out there, so I feel like I’m on the cusp of something great in my life. Plus, my Christmas present to myself (and partially because I got a raise) is a paid month on chemistry.com. I feel like if I remove all of the bullshit barriers, and both parties are at the same point in their life, I could have some real luck. Besides, there’s a lot of single men in Cincinnati, and I can’t wait to dive in!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Glutton for punishment
Well, I'm back to the same old cycle: talking to J every day without fail. I have no willpower whatsoever.
Still not ready to talk about the hockey game.
Still not ready to talk about the hockey game.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Not quite part III
So, I really want to explain about what happened at the hockey game this weekend, but I'm suffering from a mental block. It was so emotionally draining that I can't make the words reach my fingers. I'm already expending too much energy getting through the day.
My heart hurts.
My heart hurts.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Part II: The Day Before the Hockey Game
11/05/09
10:56pm Ann i will be coming to michigan two times in the next month. i won't be able to make it to midland over thanksgiving, but i may the following weekend.
10:56pmHeather sweet! i miss u bunches
10:57pmAnn my family christmas is dec 5th, and provided it ends early enough, i can come crash at your place, and hang out that Sunday. we could have a party! in celebration of meeeeeeeeeee
10:57pmHeather that'd be sweet
10:57pmAnn lol
10:57pmHeather yay! i love celebrating ann. no captain for me tho i got wild last night
10:58pmAnn so lets plan on sat night party on dec 5th. i will be there, and invite your crew and the old crew.
probably want to take the following day off from work to recover
10:59pmHeather sweeet
10:59pmAnn like how i'm taking over your house?
11:01pmHeather i love it. someone has to be in control cuz u know i am crazy
11:01pmAnn pass the word on, and i'll remind you again closer to. i miss your craziness. i'm a little jealous hearing about everything you guys are doing
11:03pmHeather we have been partying it up since arick left his gf lol
11:03pmAnn do you mean partying or "partying"
11:04pmHeather theres a differernct?
11:04pmAnn yes. one means sex. i'm going to create a facebook event for this shin dig and i'll bring the cheesy poofs
11:05pmHeather OH! no i have been amazingly not fucking himits weird
11:05pmAnn well it's not 30 days yet
11:06pmHeather haha exactly! i have alrady broken my record with the last 9 days
11:10pmAnn yay!!
11:11pmHeather i am doing great. we have had some heavy make out sessions and maybe a little oral.... haha... but no SEX.
11:11pmAnn did i tell you I almost got laid this weekend? oral is great! actually, either giving or receiving
11:16pmHeather recieving is better lol
11:16pmAnn yeah, i know, i lied. but i was not grossed out by giving, and i always thought i would be
11:16pmHeather REALLY?????????almost lost the vcard?
11:17pmAnn nah. i'm a big pussy. i got drunk on saturday and drove home from an event, and then called j to apologize for yelling at him for driving drunk since that would make me a hypocrite. he took it as a booty call and told me to come over right away and bring condoms. some other drama went down bet. him and me and d, and by this point i was sobering up. i told him that as much as we both wanted to, he knew that i wanted more out of the relationship, so i couldn't come over
11:20pmAnn he really likes me too, and has said so, but feels like he needs to play the field some more
11:22pmHeather its a guy thing. they're stupid and don't see a good thing when it is right in front of them
11:23pmAnn so basically, everyone around us knows that we like each other now. d teases me about it mercilessly. i didn't speak to him for two days until he apologized after saturday because he told j a bunch of things i had told him in confidence. he said i never clarified it was off the record, and he couldn't understand why i was mad when it was all stuff j already knew. the point was that he betrayed me, and j didn't need to be reminded when we're working on being friends
11:25pmHeather wow. u do have drama. i thought i was the only one
11:25pmAnn i know, i'm sorry i'm venting, but it's not done
11:26pmAnn he actually must have said something right because j has been talking to me even more at work, and today was especially honest and a good conversation. i was in the middle of negotiations yesterday and put up my do not disturb signal on my IM, and he sent me a special message: "does the dnd mean me too :( "
11:28pmHeather well thats good
11:28pmAnn my friend misty is convinced that d is using deliberate sabotage on us because he likes me too. sooooooooooooooo
11:28pmHeather cuz u sexy lol
11:29pmAnn tomorrow's hockey game, we're all going together and those two are getting wasted
11:30pmAnn apparently, taking them both to keeneland started a huge bromance and d is crashing on j's couch after the game and they're hanging out all weekend
11:30pmHeather wow lol
11:30pmAnn i've also heard from both of them separately that they text each other about me, so i can only imagine what's been said. probably that i'm a tease, or something. so, i think that's it, for now.
11:32pmHeather thats never good news
11:32pmAnn oh, i almost forgot, jared bought me pizza and a drink on saturday at the event. he may just have been being nice. i really wish i could read him better. j said the sex was an open invitation though, but he wants to do the friends with benefits thing, and i want a relationship.
11:33pmHeather cuz thats the right thing to do
11:34pmAnn i know. why am i still hung up on this dumbass after two months?
11:34pmHeather cuz we feel deeply. me and u are alike in that way
11:36pmAnn i refuse to put any label stronger than "like" on this
11:36pmHeather fo sho.
11:36pmAnn cause i know he could break my heart
11:38pmHeather yup. i was telling arick that last night. that i am so into him and i am scared he might move on without me
11:39pmAnn and guys say we're not honest
Part III: Hockey Game to follow
10:56pm Ann i will be coming to michigan two times in the next month. i won't be able to make it to midland over thanksgiving, but i may the following weekend.
10:56pmHeather sweet! i miss u bunches
10:57pmAnn my family christmas is dec 5th, and provided it ends early enough, i can come crash at your place, and hang out that Sunday. we could have a party! in celebration of meeeeeeeeeee
10:57pmHeather that'd be sweet
10:57pmAnn lol
10:57pmHeather yay! i love celebrating ann. no captain for me tho i got wild last night
10:58pmAnn so lets plan on sat night party on dec 5th. i will be there, and invite your crew and the old crew.
probably want to take the following day off from work to recover
10:59pmHeather sweeet
10:59pmAnn like how i'm taking over your house?
11:01pmHeather i love it. someone has to be in control cuz u know i am crazy
11:01pmAnn pass the word on, and i'll remind you again closer to. i miss your craziness. i'm a little jealous hearing about everything you guys are doing
11:03pmHeather we have been partying it up since arick left his gf lol
11:03pmAnn do you mean partying or "partying"
11:04pmHeather theres a differernct?
11:04pmAnn yes. one means sex. i'm going to create a facebook event for this shin dig and i'll bring the cheesy poofs
11:05pmHeather OH! no i have been amazingly not fucking himits weird
11:05pmAnn well it's not 30 days yet
11:06pmHeather haha exactly! i have alrady broken my record with the last 9 days
11:10pmAnn yay!!
11:11pmHeather i am doing great. we have had some heavy make out sessions and maybe a little oral.... haha... but no SEX.
11:11pmAnn did i tell you I almost got laid this weekend? oral is great! actually, either giving or receiving
11:16pmHeather recieving is better lol
11:16pmAnn yeah, i know, i lied. but i was not grossed out by giving, and i always thought i would be
11:16pmHeather REALLY?????????almost lost the vcard?
11:17pmAnn nah. i'm a big pussy. i got drunk on saturday and drove home from an event, and then called j to apologize for yelling at him for driving drunk since that would make me a hypocrite. he took it as a booty call and told me to come over right away and bring condoms. some other drama went down bet. him and me and d, and by this point i was sobering up. i told him that as much as we both wanted to, he knew that i wanted more out of the relationship, so i couldn't come over
11:20pmAnn he really likes me too, and has said so, but feels like he needs to play the field some more
11:22pmHeather its a guy thing. they're stupid and don't see a good thing when it is right in front of them
11:23pmAnn so basically, everyone around us knows that we like each other now. d teases me about it mercilessly. i didn't speak to him for two days until he apologized after saturday because he told j a bunch of things i had told him in confidence. he said i never clarified it was off the record, and he couldn't understand why i was mad when it was all stuff j already knew. the point was that he betrayed me, and j didn't need to be reminded when we're working on being friends
11:25pmHeather wow. u do have drama. i thought i was the only one
11:25pmAnn i know, i'm sorry i'm venting, but it's not done
11:26pmAnn he actually must have said something right because j has been talking to me even more at work, and today was especially honest and a good conversation. i was in the middle of negotiations yesterday and put up my do not disturb signal on my IM, and he sent me a special message: "does the dnd mean me too :( "
11:28pmHeather well thats good
11:28pmAnn my friend misty is convinced that d is using deliberate sabotage on us because he likes me too. sooooooooooooooo
11:28pmHeather cuz u sexy lol
11:29pmAnn tomorrow's hockey game, we're all going together and those two are getting wasted
11:30pmAnn apparently, taking them both to keeneland started a huge bromance and d is crashing on j's couch after the game and they're hanging out all weekend
11:30pmHeather wow lol
11:30pmAnn i've also heard from both of them separately that they text each other about me, so i can only imagine what's been said. probably that i'm a tease, or something. so, i think that's it, for now.
11:32pmHeather thats never good news
11:32pmAnn oh, i almost forgot, jared bought me pizza and a drink on saturday at the event. he may just have been being nice. i really wish i could read him better. j said the sex was an open invitation though, but he wants to do the friends with benefits thing, and i want a relationship.
11:33pmHeather cuz thats the right thing to do
11:34pmAnn i know. why am i still hung up on this dumbass after two months?
11:34pmHeather cuz we feel deeply. me and u are alike in that way
11:36pmAnn i refuse to put any label stronger than "like" on this
11:36pmHeather fo sho.
11:36pmAnn cause i know he could break my heart
11:38pmHeather yup. i was telling arick that last night. that i am so into him and i am scared he might move on without me
11:39pmAnn and guys say we're not honest
Part III: Hockey Game to follow
Monday, November 9, 2009
Part I: Halloween Weekend
10/31/09
5:53pm Ann ??
5:53pmD u just want some, call j back
5:53pmAnn he said he had to go, he was in the middle of something
5:53pmD haha he's texting me
5:53pmAnn you're so full of crap
5:53pmD im serious
5:53pmAnn nuh uh prove it
5:54pmD how? lol he just said if you want a bootycall to call him back
5:54pmAnn no he didn't
5:54pmD i promise. call him lol
5:54pmAnn i've never heard him use the word "booty call"
5:55pmD quit being a pussy and call him
5:55pmAnn if that's true, have him call me. lol, i almost fell on my ass slipping on the tiles in my bathroom
5:56pmD lmfao
5:56pmAnn holy fuck
5:56pmD ?
5:56pmAnn you were talking to j
5:57pmD yea lol. did he call you
5:57pmAnn i so didn't believe you. he sent me a text
5:57pmD lol whatd it say
5:57pmAnn "did you call me for a booty call"
5:57pmD haha. and your response was "yes" uhhhh you didnt reply to him?
5:59pmAnn i had to think about what to say
5:59pmD lol
5:59pmAnn it took a minute
5:59pmD say 'yes i want some'
6:00pmAnn i do, but he doesn't want the same thing
6:00pmD lol. he said if its just a bootycall he would do it. lol
6:01pmAnn yeah, that's what he said
6:01pmD so get you some. lol
6:01pmAnn i'm a fucking pussy
6:01pmD jesus. quit whining about wanting some if you wont get it when its offered lol
6:03pmD :D
6:05pmAnn i've lost a little bit of trust in you
6:06pmD why
6:07pmAnn has everything i've said been passed on?
6:07pmD no? just that you want him
6:07pmAnn i thought i was speaking to you in confidence
6:08pmD psh you never said "off the record"
6:08pmAnn it's ok, i guess. he knew that at one point. god, i'm embarrassed
6:08pmD lol why
6:08pmAnn i am stupid while drunk
6:09pmD lol. go to a bar alone. promise you can find some dick if you ask
6:09pmAnn that's no fun. i mean the going alone
6:09pmD lol
6:10pmD go and be like 'who wants pussy'
6:13pmAnn no
6:13pmD awww
6:35pmAnn ok. please tell me that you're not going to say anything to jared about anything.
6:36pmD lol no. jackson says hi
6:39pmAnn who's jackson?
6:39pmD da puppy face doggy head
6:45pmAnn sorry to ignore you- i was talking to my main gay
6:48pmAnn when i said on my text it would be losing a friend, i meant it was going to be awkward at work and yp events with j until we can get back to where we were again
6:49pmAnn so it's like we're not friends
6:54pmD sure you are. i dont let shit get weird :D
6:54pmAnn not us, moron. j and i
7:03pm Misty if he honestly thought he could get that from you today...without being devoted to you..he's a fucker. im not saying you need to be mad at him, but you do need to recognize
7:03pmAnn the funny thing is, if we had still been going out from august, he could have been having regular sex. i know. he's playing me
7:04pmMisty yep...he's a little smarter than he looks. and he's a guy-which means hes a fucker. and not just literally
7:04pmAnn true dat lol
7:04pmMisty i hate boys
7:04pmAnn i hear you. but i would never make a good lesbian.
7:05pmMisty be cool with j if you have to work with him...be mature...but don't socialize with him outside of work.
7:05pmAnn and stop responding to his daily im's?
7:05pmMisty haha. im not really into the lesbian thing...bc im sure girls play games as much as boys...but i do hate boys. I would, don't be rude...just say hey-im in the middle of something...let me get back to you. then dont
7:06pmAnn isn't that a game too?
7:06pmMisty yes.
7:08pmAnn i may need you to remind me daily, lol
7:09pmMisty nope...you're just gonna have to learn how to get what you want
7:09pmAnn why am i still hung up on this dumbass? it's been two months
7:10pmMisty bc you like him...he's smart, has a good job, is a decent guy outside of a relationship, and isn't bad looking. duh.
7:10pmAnn all good qualities. i think he just needs to grow up
7:10pmMisty yep.
7:12pmMisty he could be boyfriend material...you just have to play your cards right...to make him want you like that...enough to be committed. he obviously likes you and is attracted to you, but like they say, "why buy the cow, when you can get the milk for free?" he thinks he can get free milk.
7:13pmAnn so besides politely ignoring him. what else should i do?
7:14pmMisty be short and to the point. don't elaborate on much...if he ask you what your doing...give a short response...skip the U? no open ended questions. always be polite...just act a little less interested.
7:15pmAnn ok, i think i can do that.
7:15pmMisty i know you can
7:16pmAnn i feel like previously, i've been a big tease
7:16pmMisty don't play too hard...i tend to over do it. so what? it's okay to be a tease. not all the time
7:16pmAnn and i don;t want to be that either. i value honesty and openness, and that hasn't really worked for me thus far. well, poo. now i'll have no one to talk to- no im's at work, and no texting. lol
7:17pmMisty i know...i like being honest and telling ppl exactly how i feel...but you have to be in the right position...relationship wise to do that-or that's how i feel anyway. you can IM me. lol...i can't IM back all the time-but i will when i can. :)
7:18pmAnn that makes sense. we have to be at the right step to be open and honest
7:18pmMisty yep. they freak out otherwise. speaking of freaking out...i might do something with tyler tonight-im not sure yet...he's supposed to call after he takes his little girl trick r treating.
7:19pmAnn how is that working out for you? was he totally pissed after wednesday?
7:19pmMisty i dont know...friday he IMed me and asked me how us was...but i never answered bc i was in interviews. but only jessica and i went. i didnt take anyone and she didnt take alex
7:21pmAnn i'm sure you still had fun. so you guys haven't gone out since last week?
7:22pmMisty since...keeneland
7:23pmAnn wow. i bet he's in withdrawl. lol
7:24pmMisty ummm, i bet he's reconsidering how his actions from now on...he knew i had other options before....know he KNOWS i have other options. im not going to sit around and wait on him
7:24pmAnn good for you. i need to look into those other options of which you speak
7:25pmMisty unfortunately, he also knows how full of games i am...and i get the feeling he doesn't think he can trust me. there are downsides to these games
7:25pmAnn that is true.
7:25pmMisty i've never lied about anything...but still...
7:26pmAnn i think i can fly under the radar for a while since i haven't tried it at all
7:26pmMisty with the other options...i think he thinks im not serious about him...and i am. i really do like him
yep. i think thats a good call
7:26pmAnn i'm sure he'll chalk up monday to me just being embarrassed about tonight and not the start of my backing off
7:27pmMisty i just cant believe he said that...and wtf with d?
7:28pmAnn i don't even know
7:28pmMisty thats def a break of trust...
7:28pmAnn it's almost as if it was deliberate sabotage
7:29pmMisty i wouldnt trust d anymore with anything
7:30pmAnn yeah. i'm not even talking to him for a while.
7:30pmMisty i wouldnt. and i think this is a good time to evaluate your friends and who you can confide in.
7:31pmAnn you're still good, right? lol
7:31pmMisty yep!
7:32pmAnn i guess my problem was that i tried having a straight male as a platonic friend
7:35pmMisty you have to be very selective with those...its very hard to have a platonic made friend...usually there is some kind of physical attraction...when girls are friends with boys...so likely he's interested in you thats why he sabotaged you
7:36pmAnn it's on his side then, i do not have any romantic feelings towards him
7:36pmMisty that may be true...but its fairly common.
7:37pmAnn man, i have been so out of the loop with relationship stuff
7:37pmMisty cosmo...pick them up, read them, don't take them too literally.
7:37pmAnn i feel like i'm 16 or 17 instead of 29 when it comes to this stuff
7:38pmMisty bc it doesnt get any better as you get older-only worse
7:39pmAnn lol, something to look forward to
7:40pmMisty i feel like it was so easy when i was younger...i guess i just didnt know then what i know now
7:41pmAnn i appreciate the advice
7:41pmMisty i try. take the things you think fit your situation...
7:42pmAnn i will. i think i have a handle on things now- being sober helps too. :)
7:42pmMisty yeah, drinking doesnt help much really
7:43pmAnn it's funny. it brought up a bunch of stuff that i had been suppressing. didn't know i had it in me.
7:44pmMisty bless it...another tip...i've been reading your notes. just a suggestion, but i think its best to keep your frustrations about not being in a relationship off fb. i know its really how you feel, but at the same time, if an interested boy reads your notes, it may come off desperate and make them run the other direction.
most boys freak out about commitment
7:45pmAnn ok. i was afraid i was giving off the desperation vibes. i guess i was, ha ha.
7:46pmMisty ah, not really, it was just becoming a consistent msg
7:47pmAnn yeah. i see that. someone should come up with a better set of questions.
7:48pmMisty haha, you should!
5:53pm Ann ??
5:53pmD u just want some, call j back
5:53pmAnn he said he had to go, he was in the middle of something
5:53pmD haha he's texting me
5:53pmAnn you're so full of crap
5:53pmD im serious
5:53pmAnn nuh uh prove it
5:54pmD how? lol he just said if you want a bootycall to call him back
5:54pmAnn no he didn't
5:54pmD i promise. call him lol
5:54pmAnn i've never heard him use the word "booty call"
5:55pmD quit being a pussy and call him
5:55pmAnn if that's true, have him call me. lol, i almost fell on my ass slipping on the tiles in my bathroom
5:56pmD lmfao
5:56pmAnn holy fuck
5:56pmD ?
5:56pmAnn you were talking to j
5:57pmD yea lol. did he call you
5:57pmAnn i so didn't believe you. he sent me a text
5:57pmD lol whatd it say
5:57pmAnn "did you call me for a booty call"
5:57pmD haha. and your response was "yes" uhhhh you didnt reply to him?
5:59pmAnn i had to think about what to say
5:59pmD lol
5:59pmAnn it took a minute
5:59pmD say 'yes i want some'
6:00pmAnn i do, but he doesn't want the same thing
6:00pmD lol. he said if its just a bootycall he would do it. lol
6:01pmAnn yeah, that's what he said
6:01pmD so get you some. lol
6:01pmAnn i'm a fucking pussy
6:01pmD jesus. quit whining about wanting some if you wont get it when its offered lol
6:03pmD :D
6:05pmAnn i've lost a little bit of trust in you
6:06pmD why
6:07pmAnn has everything i've said been passed on?
6:07pmD no? just that you want him
6:07pmAnn i thought i was speaking to you in confidence
6:08pmD psh you never said "off the record"
6:08pmAnn it's ok, i guess. he knew that at one point. god, i'm embarrassed
6:08pmD lol why
6:08pmAnn i am stupid while drunk
6:09pmD lol. go to a bar alone. promise you can find some dick if you ask
6:09pmAnn that's no fun. i mean the going alone
6:09pmD lol
6:10pmD go and be like 'who wants pussy'
6:13pmAnn no
6:13pmD awww
6:35pmAnn ok. please tell me that you're not going to say anything to jared about anything.
6:36pmD lol no. jackson says hi
6:39pmAnn who's jackson?
6:39pmD da puppy face doggy head
6:45pmAnn sorry to ignore you- i was talking to my main gay
6:48pmAnn when i said on my text it would be losing a friend, i meant it was going to be awkward at work and yp events with j until we can get back to where we were again
6:49pmAnn so it's like we're not friends
6:54pmD sure you are. i dont let shit get weird :D
6:54pmAnn not us, moron. j and i
7:03pm Misty if he honestly thought he could get that from you today...without being devoted to you..he's a fucker. im not saying you need to be mad at him, but you do need to recognize
7:03pmAnn the funny thing is, if we had still been going out from august, he could have been having regular sex. i know. he's playing me
7:04pmMisty yep...he's a little smarter than he looks. and he's a guy-which means hes a fucker. and not just literally
7:04pmAnn true dat lol
7:04pmMisty i hate boys
7:04pmAnn i hear you. but i would never make a good lesbian.
7:05pmMisty be cool with j if you have to work with him...be mature...but don't socialize with him outside of work.
7:05pmAnn and stop responding to his daily im's?
7:05pmMisty haha. im not really into the lesbian thing...bc im sure girls play games as much as boys...but i do hate boys. I would, don't be rude...just say hey-im in the middle of something...let me get back to you. then dont
7:06pmAnn isn't that a game too?
7:06pmMisty yes.
7:08pmAnn i may need you to remind me daily, lol
7:09pmMisty nope...you're just gonna have to learn how to get what you want
7:09pmAnn why am i still hung up on this dumbass? it's been two months
7:10pmMisty bc you like him...he's smart, has a good job, is a decent guy outside of a relationship, and isn't bad looking. duh.
7:10pmAnn all good qualities. i think he just needs to grow up
7:10pmMisty yep.
7:12pmMisty he could be boyfriend material...you just have to play your cards right...to make him want you like that...enough to be committed. he obviously likes you and is attracted to you, but like they say, "why buy the cow, when you can get the milk for free?" he thinks he can get free milk.
7:13pmAnn so besides politely ignoring him. what else should i do?
7:14pmMisty be short and to the point. don't elaborate on much...if he ask you what your doing...give a short response...skip the U? no open ended questions. always be polite...just act a little less interested.
7:15pmAnn ok, i think i can do that.
7:15pmMisty i know you can
7:16pmAnn i feel like previously, i've been a big tease
7:16pmMisty don't play too hard...i tend to over do it. so what? it's okay to be a tease. not all the time
7:16pmAnn and i don;t want to be that either. i value honesty and openness, and that hasn't really worked for me thus far. well, poo. now i'll have no one to talk to- no im's at work, and no texting. lol
7:17pmMisty i know...i like being honest and telling ppl exactly how i feel...but you have to be in the right position...relationship wise to do that-or that's how i feel anyway. you can IM me. lol...i can't IM back all the time-but i will when i can. :)
7:18pmAnn that makes sense. we have to be at the right step to be open and honest
7:18pmMisty yep. they freak out otherwise. speaking of freaking out...i might do something with tyler tonight-im not sure yet...he's supposed to call after he takes his little girl trick r treating.
7:19pmAnn how is that working out for you? was he totally pissed after wednesday?
7:19pmMisty i dont know...friday he IMed me and asked me how us was...but i never answered bc i was in interviews. but only jessica and i went. i didnt take anyone and she didnt take alex
7:21pmAnn i'm sure you still had fun. so you guys haven't gone out since last week?
7:22pmMisty since...keeneland
7:23pmAnn wow. i bet he's in withdrawl. lol
7:24pmMisty ummm, i bet he's reconsidering how his actions from now on...he knew i had other options before....know he KNOWS i have other options. im not going to sit around and wait on him
7:24pmAnn good for you. i need to look into those other options of which you speak
7:25pmMisty unfortunately, he also knows how full of games i am...and i get the feeling he doesn't think he can trust me. there are downsides to these games
7:25pmAnn that is true.
7:25pmMisty i've never lied about anything...but still...
7:26pmAnn i think i can fly under the radar for a while since i haven't tried it at all
7:26pmMisty with the other options...i think he thinks im not serious about him...and i am. i really do like him
yep. i think thats a good call
7:26pmAnn i'm sure he'll chalk up monday to me just being embarrassed about tonight and not the start of my backing off
7:27pmMisty i just cant believe he said that...and wtf with d?
7:28pmAnn i don't even know
7:28pmMisty thats def a break of trust...
7:28pmAnn it's almost as if it was deliberate sabotage
7:29pmMisty i wouldnt trust d anymore with anything
7:30pmAnn yeah. i'm not even talking to him for a while.
7:30pmMisty i wouldnt. and i think this is a good time to evaluate your friends and who you can confide in.
7:31pmAnn you're still good, right? lol
7:31pmMisty yep!
7:32pmAnn i guess my problem was that i tried having a straight male as a platonic friend
7:35pmMisty you have to be very selective with those...its very hard to have a platonic made friend...usually there is some kind of physical attraction...when girls are friends with boys...so likely he's interested in you thats why he sabotaged you
7:36pmAnn it's on his side then, i do not have any romantic feelings towards him
7:36pmMisty that may be true...but its fairly common.
7:37pmAnn man, i have been so out of the loop with relationship stuff
7:37pmMisty cosmo...pick them up, read them, don't take them too literally.
7:37pmAnn i feel like i'm 16 or 17 instead of 29 when it comes to this stuff
7:38pmMisty bc it doesnt get any better as you get older-only worse
7:39pmAnn lol, something to look forward to
7:40pmMisty i feel like it was so easy when i was younger...i guess i just didnt know then what i know now
7:41pmAnn i appreciate the advice
7:41pmMisty i try. take the things you think fit your situation...
7:42pmAnn i will. i think i have a handle on things now- being sober helps too. :)
7:42pmMisty yeah, drinking doesnt help much really
7:43pmAnn it's funny. it brought up a bunch of stuff that i had been suppressing. didn't know i had it in me.
7:44pmMisty bless it...another tip...i've been reading your notes. just a suggestion, but i think its best to keep your frustrations about not being in a relationship off fb. i know its really how you feel, but at the same time, if an interested boy reads your notes, it may come off desperate and make them run the other direction.
most boys freak out about commitment
7:45pmAnn ok. i was afraid i was giving off the desperation vibes. i guess i was, ha ha.
7:46pmMisty ah, not really, it was just becoming a consistent msg
7:47pmAnn yeah. i see that. someone should come up with a better set of questions.
7:48pmMisty haha, you should!
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