Boomerang

Two stories of guys that don't go away:

J texted me last week: "Yo, pictures of boobs . . . stat" I declined, and he got mad. Kept insisting that I send him video or pictures immediately. I will admit, I have sent a couple in the past, in the middle of the mess we were going through. Now, there's no point, as he no longer lives in the city, and never committed to me. I kept saying no, and he threatens me, "you would hate for some incriminating emails to make their way to high level Kroger executives." I told him that threatening me will get him nowhere, and he is oblivious to the fact he has sent less than appropriate IMs over Kroger networks, and I have saved them all. I'm hoping it was an empty, drunken threat, and that was the end of it. I also told him that I thought we were friends, but the only time I hear from him is when he's drunk or horny or both.

The next night, he texts me to apologize, and how he was so drunk on Four Lokos in celebration of them being banned. I am not letting down my guard, he has burned me too much in the past.

BH texted me today as well, ironically, at the exact time I was talking about him to a friend. He was wondering what happened to me and wanted me to know that he missed talking to me, and BTW when was I coming to Michigan? He asked if it was something he did to make me stop talking to him, and wanted to pick up right where we left off. I have been talking to him all day, and he asked if he could finish the conversation tomorrow. He's always been super nice to me, and we are very compatible, but we're both set in our ways on the distance. I haven't decided if I'm going to go see him when I travel to Michigan in two weeks. He has made a very nice offer to fix my external hard drive and share some entertainment. I guess I'll have to see when everything else is going on, and try to fit him in- although he did ask for an entire day.

Confused . . .

I have a situation going on with a friend- I don't know how I feel, and I don't know how he feels, but let me explain Friday.

Thursday night, a few people went over to the Kilt for a late Thanksgiving dinner (Ugh, so stuffed!), and A was supposed to meet me there. The other people with me were bored with the bar, and wanted to go to a different one downtown. So we left, and A missed me by less than 5 minutes. He begins texting me right away (yes, I texted and drove, and I am ashamed), wondering why I didn't stay. We basically chatted for several hours while he was there, and I was at a bar downtown. He then invites me to lunch the next day.

So, I go to lunch with him, and it's really nice. I leave, and do some shopping with Todd. He texts me later and invites me to dinner. I tell him I have Todd with me, and he tells me to bring him along, there's a whole group. We have a nice dinner, and keep exchanging glances and faces, and he tells me that I'm pretty much one of his favorite people.

Todd and I leave, and A starts texting me again. He tells me to drop Todd off and come hang out again. So I do, expecting a whole group and we'll go out on the town. I get there, and it's just me and him, and he wants me to help him pick out a new tv so we can watch a movie (Black Friday deals). I do so, and we drive back to his house where he sets it up in his bedroom and invites me to lay down on his bed to watch it.

He then proceeds to strip off all his clothes except his boxers, and climbed into bed next to me (I'm still fully clothed). It was chilly because his ceiling fan was running, so we're under the covers together. He occasionally touched my arm or my leg all night, but nothing else. I left after the movie was done, but that was still 3am.

The confusion comes into play because he has a bunch of girls always hanging around him that he calls his harem or his mistresses but insists that I'm different. Then he treats me like a good buddy and asks me to introduce him to my single female friends. This is the same guy at Labor Day that said he was maybe interested in something with me after we flirted for days.

He told me today that he was going to ax all the girls in his life but wanted to make sure that I knew I wasn't included in that and he doesn't consider me one of the "mistresses." So what does that mean? We're good buds, or he's looking for something more? It would not be difficult for me to have stronger feelings for him, as he's already one of my favorite boys and we hang out all the time. He's a nice guy that tries to act like an asshole, but I see right through the act and call him on it. I'm probably the only girl he doesn't play games with.

I don't know. I guess I'll just stay the course until he makes up his mind. Don't think in the meantime that I'm waiting around!

A teaser

I promise to fill up this blog this weekend with a real post of all the happenings in my life, but in the meantime:

-Update on the Keeneland trip to come! As well as a story about my foot and another about a mouse in my apartment.

-More idiocy with J, on his part, of course.

-Have gotten to the point where I can look at 21 objectively, and I wish him the best.

-Still going out with NOLA occasionally, and he came to dinner with several of my friends last Friday.

-New cutie at work that I may ask out- have to see after the holiday.

-My November challenge has been fairly successful, but I sure picked the wrong month to stop drinking!

For Fuck's Sake

Wow. After all the crap you put me through, YOU dump ME?? How does this happen? Way to go a-hole, it's not my fault you don't have time for me.

:-(

Do you really think that I don't notice when you update your facebook four times a day and don't respond to my texts? Thanks for making me sad once again.

Plus, I'm really afraid that you're just staying with me until the concert so you can go and not feel guilty. So thanks for that too.

NEW

I received an invite to NEW: the Network of Executive Women.  It's strange.  I don't feel an affinity to this group or to women in general.  It's not my demographic - yes, I am a woman, but I am an individual and my goals are not to further women's rights, so to speak.

I am more interested in furthering gay rights, or helping young professionals, and trying to become a better person.  As far as I'm concerned, women are pretty well set.  It has been stressed so much in the last 90 years that it is time to further a new demographic.  It has become such a non-issue that for my generation, there has never been any doubt that women would do as well, if not better, than men.  For that, I thank the generations for the battle they fought.  This post is not meant to minimize their efforts, without which my openness would not be possible.

As I look around the room, there is a visible age line - the majority of the women are forty plus.  There is a single table of girls that are early twenties.  They were put all at the same table and are the college outreach division.  *rolls eyes* Good job, NEW, you have eight potential members.

The conversation right now from the speaker is about building relationships with other women.  I'm a little disgusted because apparently, relationships with men as a support system are for naught.  Also, we clap after almost every statement.  Ie- "Making IT Happen is about building relationships." *clap clap clap*  How is everything said that impactful?  It's not.  I have to figure out a way to politely decline this next time.  It's not for me, but I do hope to keep the lanyard.

Update:
There was a basket as you came down the stairs to deposit the lanyard into, but I just zipped up my coat over mine and walked out the door.  Success!

Having trouble with motivation all around

My choice tonight was to write in this blog or upload the hundreds of pictures from my camera that people have been asking to see.  Guess which won?